tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137347772024-03-19T10:50:40.128+08:00You Can Call Me JaredI do not consider it an insult, but rather a compliment to be called an agnostic. I do not pretend to know where many ignorant men are sure -- that is all that agnosticism means - Clarence Darrow, Scopes trial, Dayton, Tennessee, July 13, 1925jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.comBlogger44125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-28389087990963379092011-12-03T03:15:00.001+08:002011-12-03T03:15:54.218+08:00Hey again...It's been a while since i last blogged.. Almost two years.<br /><br /><br />- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad<br />jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-56904832948849004152007-03-14T18:26:00.000+08:002007-03-14T18:35:41.314+08:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2iINPjbKtdIBYHePflRVnrbXcG1Bh9PM0XaGULJnFuoYzyeOys1Ymmpr-dt2RuF2m3oS9CZZAaxKJV2UL_iqaYZCBRbdBLru8BsyBaLr0Q4DUQ_jvMlMIdJhDcm3otuz2ybpfiQ/s1600-h/wedding006.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2iINPjbKtdIBYHePflRVnrbXcG1Bh9PM0XaGULJnFuoYzyeOys1Ymmpr-dt2RuF2m3oS9CZZAaxKJV2UL_iqaYZCBRbdBLru8BsyBaLr0Q4DUQ_jvMlMIdJhDcm3otuz2ybpfiQ/s320/wedding006.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5041725748459736530" /></a><br />04.03.2007 was a big day for both me and Liza. We had our wedding on that day. I had a lukewarm feeling about it.. Well, with marriage comes heavy responsibility. Now I am enjoying my new (or re-newed, as <a href="http://puterismusings.blogspot.com">Doris</a> would call it) status.jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-73030115488962071222006-12-04T10:15:00.000+08:002006-12-04T10:16:15.057+08:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi6FlQhM0_ZVLYXmt_17sHF-K4tkHUwufdo6e4NpeZnx2SIBNZEInv1bpIAQoiDRVWbkoa2oMoNik7tDbdUU9SdBU828Y_-MlBcop2z8a-k-0rxtMVfdiEEMVvEP6Urh31FO3H9og/s1600-h/Bertunang.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi6FlQhM0_ZVLYXmt_17sHF-K4tkHUwufdo6e4NpeZnx2SIBNZEInv1bpIAQoiDRVWbkoa2oMoNik7tDbdUU9SdBU828Y_-MlBcop2z8a-k-0rxtMVfdiEEMVvEP6Urh31FO3H9og/s320/Bertunang.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5004489662195987618" /></a><br />Me and Liza after the "Bertunang" ceremony.jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-60461317611334792912006-12-02T11:13:00.000+08:002006-12-02T11:14:28.858+08:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXBLwlIm_17iFsC7204R0yE9CFuUh08390CMcQeYdM_uRjeNtHLc0S_hk7dtTjxN3e2iCuOQWdJMuHCgYMUJAG03CCcI3QE8_UlDDO5On9XYgqAZla1gGFihg1aYCweFyAqUB68g/s1600-h/Ayu+and+cousins.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXBLwlIm_17iFsC7204R0yE9CFuUh08390CMcQeYdM_uRjeNtHLc0S_hk7dtTjxN3e2iCuOQWdJMuHCgYMUJAG03CCcI3QE8_UlDDO5On9XYgqAZla1gGFihg1aYCweFyAqUB68g/s320/Ayu+and+cousins.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5003762352434082962" /></a><br />From left, Afrina, Affandi, Ashrafiq and Ayujaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-27442169256404445572006-12-02T11:10:00.001+08:002006-12-02T11:10:47.800+08:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiyWM6g9ruMttlU7OTtV6NQmWEXw1YXmgIkXx90KG0W39R1dsrWbVu-box_GNOkQY7b8NPN2-6X4XqG-r1qaQRj5Swz7PIjWyoUcBQBDZnvJtZcQWIltF-8Q-upk5FAb_FYwhggLw/s1600-h/Papa+and+Ayu.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiyWM6g9ruMttlU7OTtV6NQmWEXw1YXmgIkXx90KG0W39R1dsrWbVu-box_GNOkQY7b8NPN2-6X4XqG-r1qaQRj5Swz7PIjWyoUcBQBDZnvJtZcQWIltF-8Q-upk5FAb_FYwhggLw/s320/Papa+and+Ayu.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5003761609404740738" /></a><br />Papa and Ayujaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-28555036935190389692006-12-02T11:08:00.000+08:002006-12-02T11:09:10.629+08:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCVlYbJ72w2XFWZNtNryOEuFPFMdvN522I1RkZ3zKA1oKQ4Wk4msZeTJafkWCACtoj6TXaA2kmAmXn8oOee4JoZBTawUiSNbDKB0CPJ6pNffyodaonkIKF5EOweXogbYzPjhZzjw/s1600-h/Ayu+Big+Girl.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCVlYbJ72w2XFWZNtNryOEuFPFMdvN522I1RkZ3zKA1oKQ4Wk4msZeTJafkWCACtoj6TXaA2kmAmXn8oOee4JoZBTawUiSNbDKB0CPJ6pNffyodaonkIKF5EOweXogbYzPjhZzjw/s320/Ayu+Big+Girl.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5003761106893567090" /></a><br />She's a big girl now... isn't she?jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-64479002417885984542006-12-02T11:05:00.000+08:002006-12-02T11:08:20.760+08:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhf-lJwLdsDJVYUNjJwco_xvzICRfiL8vrmcl-MSM7U0pRJRtuzWeqtYPKM6DVqKMmebtHF7z26EE5VCag3FoaayOe1qcZZZzVHShNafdC0W8-pwMBIAE4Mu2VFKJ7B-NvpveDdWQ/s1600-h/Ayu's+birthday.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhf-lJwLdsDJVYUNjJwco_xvzICRfiL8vrmcl-MSM7U0pRJRtuzWeqtYPKM6DVqKMmebtHF7z26EE5VCag3FoaayOe1qcZZZzVHShNafdC0W8-pwMBIAE4Mu2VFKJ7B-NvpveDdWQ/s320/Ayu's+birthday.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5003760905030104162" /></a><br />Happy 6th. birthday my darling!!!jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-23651085263304046202006-12-02T10:34:00.000+08:002006-12-02T10:42:20.889+08:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhDAdfCPgo2rf-cYiYRNmUf-MxSF9NLp4tH6rs3NUttPL1woyFL8A9sp2ond2tmmNh3Ylxqa22IVtxZDGGbWpdf3R8ggnehqJD_T5hf260hDrTncFtAGTMjNsOqf1jm3d66b9TAPg/s1600-h/Ayu+and+Liza.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhDAdfCPgo2rf-cYiYRNmUf-MxSF9NLp4tH6rs3NUttPL1woyFL8A9sp2ond2tmmNh3Ylxqa22IVtxZDGGbWpdf3R8ggnehqJD_T5hf260hDrTncFtAGTMjNsOqf1jm3d66b9TAPg/s320/Ayu+and+Liza.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5003754273600599122" /></a><br />Ayu and Liza taken at Ayu's Birthday bash, err.. I mean small party.jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-42965838513736826952006-12-02T10:22:00.001+08:002006-12-02T10:22:38.032+08:00The Day Has Come..<div xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml'>Tomorrow, Sunday, the 3rd. day of December at 15:00 hours (GMT) I will be engaged to Liza after more than two years of knowing each other. <br></br><br></br>It's a big decision but I guess it is time when it is time. All preparations are in place and ongoing with my eldest sister getting herself busy planning for tomorrow. <br></br><br></br>It's going to be a small event attended only by close family members of both sides. Actually I can't wait for tomorrow and Liza is doubly so.<br></br><br></br>Wedding is planned to take place some time in March 2007 during school holiday.<br></br><br></br><br></br><br></br><br></br><p class='poweredbyperformancing'>powered by <a href='http://performancing.com/firefox'>performancing firefox</a></p></div>jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-51477452879959418122006-12-01T12:48:00.002+08:002006-12-01T12:54:57.517+08:00Below is a Mazda 323GT (it's what the owner says, but I believe it's a Mazda MX-3 with a K8 V6 1.8L engine). Love the sound. I'm driving a Mazda with one of those Mazda K-series engines. V6s really love to sing and sing it hard and loud. Enjoy the noise!!!<br /><br /><object height="350" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/AjkKzDe3On0"><param name="wmode" value="transparent"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/AjkKzDe3On0" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" height="350" width="425"></object>jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-26091808581086738442006-12-01T10:09:00.001+08:002006-12-01T10:09:09.191+08:00It's Been Quite a While....<div xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml'>Well, almost no time to visit my own blog...<br></br>May be one day... may be...<br></br><br></br><br></br><p class='poweredbyperformancing'>powered by <a href='http://performancing.com/firefox'>performancing firefox</a></p></div>jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-1141119097764572342006-02-28T17:31:00.000+08:002006-02-28T17:31:37.763+08:00Of Algebra and David BeckhamOf Algebra and David Beckham<br/>Here are two questions for you:<br/><ol><li>Bet went to the shop at 11:45am. She came back at half an hour later. What time did she come back?</li><br/><li>What is twelve divided by three?</li></ol>If you couldn’t figure out the answers to the above two questions, fret not. You are not alone. Welcome to the Beckham’s “I can’t count to ten” fan club. Apparently he was having a hard time helping his six-year old son Brooklyn with the homework. <br/>He admitted that math for kindergarten was getting much more difficult nowadays<br/>Well, admit it Mr. Beck. You had not much time to learn when you were a kid. Or may be your IQ is not up to it. It doesn’t matter anyway, as long as you can bend the ball like you do. Unfortunately, there is no bending around algebra. One plus one will always be two.jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-1141118990486340842006-02-28T17:29:00.000+08:002006-02-28T17:29:50.496+08:00Same old bullsWoke up at seven this morning. Usually I would get out of bed thirty minutes later. But this was a different morning altogether. Someone on the TV’s morning edition was talking about fuel price increase. RM0.30 to be exact. What the ..!!! I sprang out of bed almost instantly! The best wake-up call I have ever had my entire life!!! Thanks BN but no thanks. <br/>What we need is a better living, not some fairy tales that we are among the most affluent nations, that we can achieve almost anything, that we Malaysians “BOLEH”!<br/>All I need is a decent living where necessary stuff is affordable. All I need is a new government! Now that I regret making a wrong decision the last General Elections. I will not make the same mistake again. The government is taking us for granted, forgetting that we were the ones that chose them to be our reps. Now they are forgetting and it’s time we showed them who the boss is. What happens with the notion “Government from the people, by the people, for the people”? It looks to me like “Government from the people, by the people, but for the select few”! <br/>They make a promise that there will be no more price increase until next year. But for god’s sake, it’s thirty sen!!! The biggest single price increase since I could remember. Shame on you. Shame on you. Shame on you people who side with the government and allow them to hold you by the balls!<br/>I can understand it if PETRONAS is losing money subsiding fuel for people. But last year they made some cool 20 billion plus in profit. <br/>Soon there will domino effects on other consumer goods. It’s going to be ugly.. very ugly!<br/>jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-1132059267231025972005-11-15T20:53:00.000+08:002005-11-15T20:56:52.473+08:00It's Party Time<br /><br />It’s party time! Or should I say polling time? A by-election is here again, this time in Pengkalan Pasir, Pasir Mas, Kelantan. A DUN seat left vacant after the demise of the elected representative whose name I don’t bother to memorize. He was a PAS representative, winning the state seat just by 55-vote majority – or should I say margin.<br /><br />A by-election is special because it is isolated from the General Election. Now all parties will get to concentrate on one small constituency. BN will be at full force to get the votes, and considering the margin that they lost to PAS in the last General Election, they will be full of confidence. PAS will bank on their Islamic image and err… and nothing else.<br />Whatever the outcome, the people of Pengkalan Pasir will be the beneficiary. Roads will be improved with new layer of tarmac; they will get a new hall, and so on and so forth. And Pak Lah and Najib will by now know where Pengkalan Pasir is.<br /><br />To me, I am critical of the government (BN). Most of their decisions have not gone well with my version of right and wrong. BUT, I don’t think there is a political party to better them. As such, should I am to cast a vote, they are the one to get it. Or I don’t vote at all if I don't like the candidates.jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-1130402344894141322005-10-27T16:39:00.000+08:002005-10-27T16:39:04.943+08:00Love is a Higher LawIntanku’s mom called a few days ago. It had been a few months since she last called. May be it was the festive mood and her thought was on Intanku. But ironically, she never asked about Intanku. She was more interested in how I was doing in life, my career, my love life and stuff. And, I answered her matter-of-factly. <br/>Only when I mentioned about Intanku that she started to sound depressed. I asked her how she could stand not seeing Intanku for more than two years and silence was her only answer. May be she was afraid of me, after all that she had done.<br/>Many times I told her that I am past all that already; that I am done chasing the ghost of her. There is no more hatred in me towards her. All I want is for Intanku to be close to her real mom. Whatever happened between me and her will not change the fact that Intanku is her daughter, her own flesh and blood. If she fails to come to see Intanku, I will bring Intanku to her this Raya. The only problem is I don’t know her whereabouts. Hopefully she’s in her hometown and I will make it a Raya to remember.<br/>jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-1130400049321713462005-10-27T16:00:00.000+08:002005-10-27T16:00:49.340+08:00A Raya to RememberThis 31.10.2005, I’ll be heading East Coast to my hometown in Tumpat, Kelantan. It’s going to be a long and memorable drive, 12 hours to be precise. It’s only two of us this time - me and Intanku. <br/>Can’t wait to meet my family especially my mum and dad. My dad has been sick lately due to high blood pressure. Now he is bedridden. I hope he will be up and about just in time for Raya. He is 62 now and the only son left in his family. All his elder brothers didn’t make it past 70. Kinda scary when it comes to think about it. I guess it’s in the bloodline and I can’t hide or run away from it. I love my dad so much, how I wish that I could be a little closer to him. <br/>This time I promise myself to make it a Raya to remember.jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-1130399081130015962005-10-27T15:44:00.000+08:002005-10-27T15:44:41.136+08:00The Last of The MohicansSpent two hours last night watching “The Last of the Mohicans” again. I lost count already how many times I‘ve watched the movie. <br/>It’s a 1993 (?) production directed by Michael Mann and starring Daniel Day-Lewis and Madeline Stowe. It is one of the many movies starring Daniel Day-Lewis that I enjoy watching time and again. In my opinion, he is at his macho best in the movie and his acting is superb. Those who haven’t watched the movie at least once, go buy yourself the DVD. Trust me, you’ll never regret it. <br/>If after watching the movie you think otherwise, just write to me for a refund!!jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-1130398281605277372005-10-27T15:31:00.000+08:002005-10-27T15:31:21.646+08:00Mr. Divine InterventionThe incoming Malaysian Airlines’ MD Idris Jala spoke to a gathering of academicians in Penang on 25.10.2005. Among others, he outlined the need for the followings to turn MAS around:<br/><br/><ol><li>going for the impossible;</li><br/><li>anchoring everything on a profit and loss statement;</li><br/><li>Instituting discipline in action in a rigorous and relentless manner;</li><br/><li>Changing one’s leadership style depending on the team development; and,</li><br/><li>Praying for divine intervention.</li></ol><br/>Whoa…whoa.. wait a minute. Praying for divine intervention? I don’t think praying for any intervention from above is on the menu for a CEO. Imagine putting on your resume that kind of stuff. No wonder he got hired.<br/>No, I am not saying it’s wrong to pray for any help but for a CEO to say that is kinda daft. A CEO is to make money or turn the company around financially, not to pray for miracles.<br/>One more thing, why can’t the government hire someone more familiar with the industry, regardless whether or not he’s a Malay, Chinese or Indian or a foreigner. Look what Tony Fernandez has done to Air Asia. The reason is once again - Ketuanan Melayu (Malay Supremacy) rubbish. Some politicians still think they are living in the 80’s, appointing Malays to top managerial positions just to show the people that they (the Government) have achieved a lot in creating Bumiputra entrepreneurs. <br/>Well, the truth is quite the opposite, bumis are still lagging behind in almost everything. <br/>jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-1129014138434622062005-10-11T15:02:00.000+08:002005-10-11T15:02:18.440+08:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/170/8095/640/Ayu_Putrajaya_1.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:2px solid #FFFFFF; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/170/8095/200/Ayu_Putrajaya_1.jpg'></a><br />Intanku - Putrajaya <a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a>jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-1129014027507928322005-10-11T15:00:00.000+08:002005-10-11T15:00:27.540+08:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/170/8095/640/Ayu_Pagoh.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:2px solid #FFFFFF; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/170/8095/200/Ayu_Pagoh.jpg'></a><br />Ayu - Taken in Pagoh, Muar, Johor <a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a>jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-1129013900269704642005-10-11T14:58:00.000+08:002005-10-11T14:58:20.270+08:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/170/8095/640/Ayu_Mama_Putrajaya.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:2px solid #FFFFFF; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/170/8095/200/Ayu_Mama_Putrajaya.jpg'></a><br />Intanku and her "mama" Liza - Putrajaya <a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a>jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-1129013779088960192005-10-11T14:56:00.000+08:002005-10-11T14:56:19.093+08:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/170/8095/640/Ayu_Danga_Bay_2.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:2px solid #FFFFFF; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/170/8095/200/Ayu_Danga_Bay_2.jpg'></a><br />Intanku - Danga Bay <a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a>jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-1129013651291862402005-10-11T14:54:00.000+08:002005-10-11T14:54:11.296+08:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/170/8095/640/Ayu_Danga_Bay_1.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:2px solid #FFFFFF; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/170/8095/200/Ayu_Danga_Bay_1.jpg'></a><br />Intanku - Danga Bay <a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a>jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-1129012795113305792005-10-11T14:39:00.000+08:002005-10-11T14:39:55.146+08:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/170/8095/640/Ayu_Putrajaya_2.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:2px solid #FFFFFF; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/170/8095/200/Ayu_Putrajaya_2.jpg'></a><br />Ayu - taken in Putrajaya during Killerbees Photoshoot <a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a>jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13734777.post-1128084830150506262005-09-30T20:53:00.000+08:002006-12-01T10:27:57.976+08:00Ever wondered why only photos of Intanku on the page? Well, for the sake of putting things in perspective, she is the only light of my eyes right now. Yes, I am a single father, a very proud one at that!! Not my intention to let the whole visitors to my blog know, but hell ya, it’s my blog and I’ll blog anything if I want to. And I can breathe easy now.<br /><br />Important dates in my life:<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">18.06.1972</span> <br /><span style="font-style: italic;">Thanks Paul McCartney and Isabella Rossellini for sharing the same birthday with me.</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">17.11.2000</span> <br /><span style="font-style: italic;">Intanku Mas Ayu was born. And my life changed forever.</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">03.10.2002</span> <br /><span style="font-style: italic;">Indah Mas Ayu was born. </span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">18.12.2003</span> <br /><span style="font-style: italic;">The day she left. And I’ve never heard any news from her since.</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">27.02.2004 </span> <br /><span style="font-style: italic;">Indah was killed in an accident. My precious, the daughter I never had. Papa is gonna miss you for the rest of Papa’s life. I felt like dismantling the stars from the sky the day that I lost you, for they were of no use any more, for the one that shone the brightest was gone forever. Felt like winning a million dollar today, only to lose it the day after.<br /><br /></span><br />I myself was surprised at how I managed to pull through all the tragedy in my life, may be it was you Intanku, for without you, I would not have the strength, and I would wilt, and I would slowly die.<br /><br />My best experience expecting a baby is when I could feel Intanku kicking from inside the womb of her mom, and how she moved her limbs around (stretching I guess) making wave-like effects on her mom's tummy. You know that thing, bulging here and there.<br /><br />There was fear though, fear of the unknown. Of course u can trust the ultra-sound (we even have 3D scan now) but you would always want your child to be born perfect, that's the greatest gift all parents could give beside tender loving care. So the moment I received a phone call from my sister telling the birth, my first question was "is the baby physically ok?”. After knowing the answer was in the affirmative, only then I would proceed with questions on gender and stuff... Such was the fear.<br /><br />Intanku will be 5 this November 17th. Her mom hasn't seen her since Dec 18 2003. And she has not called me since March. I hope she's doing well in KL. Doing what she always wanted to do. I still love her, but no matter how great is my love, I know we can never be together again. That's a sad story to tell. Anyway, having Intanku beside me, I still am counting my blessings.<br /><br />Now Intanku has someone to call "mom" but I think it will take some time before I marry my girlfriend. Until then, my sister will take care of her during daytime. I Will be very busy this December taking care of her schooling. She's very talkative. When I look at her, I always see a reflection of myself, a feeling only for you to experience to really understand. My mom in Kelantan wants to have custody of her. And she keeps insisting on that. But I resist. I want to see her growing up and oversee her education.<br /><br />Intanku won't go to bed without her dad around. Normally I will put her to sleep first before continuing with my stuff like watching TV and playing computer games. She will not sleep unless she knows I am around. I will normally lie around and lay my arm around her. A light kiss on her cheek and a butterfly kiss from her in return. Ten minutes, and she will be playing in her Wonderland. Now tell me, what price can pay for that?<br /><br />If I knew then what I know now, would I still go on marrying her mom? The answer is an absolute YES!. Even for a thousand times!. For, without the suffering, without the tragedy, there wouldn’t be Intanku.jaredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17821935127095251050noreply@blogger.com5